Hi everyone!
Heartbreak is the most painful thing I know. If there is anything worse out there, I don't want to know it. N. is moving on, and I'm stuck. I try to move on. For him, and for me. He'll be happy. A guy like him will find an awesome girl, a girl who is good for him. I'm glad he will. And I hate it when someone uses the word 'but', because it makes the words before it less valuable. But... It breaks my heart. I still want to be that girl for him. If he'd text me now, if I can come over, I don't know if I could say no. I'd probably spend the night if he wanted me to. I know it's only lust for him, but I want to be with him so bad. I still feel like I need him. I have to fight myself, to stop looking for excuses to text him. A relationship with him doesn't even seem like an option anymore. He probably talked about me with his family, his sister. She doesn't like me anymore. I thought she was my friend for over a year. I don't know what she thinks now. Or what N. told her. But it happened. And now, N. will find a new girl, which his family will love. They accept everyone, even me. I miss them. But I miss N. the most. And I don't know how to stop it.
Love,
Rose
Heartbreak is the most painful thing I know. If there is anything worse out there, I don't want to know it. N. is moving on, and I'm stuck. I try to move on. For him, and for me. He'll be happy. A guy like him will find an awesome girl, a girl who is good for him. I'm glad he will. And I hate it when someone uses the word 'but', because it makes the words before it less valuable. But... It breaks my heart. I still want to be that girl for him. If he'd text me now, if I can come over, I don't know if I could say no. I'd probably spend the night if he wanted me to. I know it's only lust for him, but I want to be with him so bad. I still feel like I need him. I have to fight myself, to stop looking for excuses to text him. A relationship with him doesn't even seem like an option anymore. He probably talked about me with his family, his sister. She doesn't like me anymore. I thought she was my friend for over a year. I don't know what she thinks now. Or what N. told her. But it happened. And now, N. will find a new girl, which his family will love. They accept everyone, even me. I miss them. But I miss N. the most. And I don't know how to stop it.
Love,
Rose