Hi everyone!
Sorry I don't write that often. I'm so busy. All kinds of stuff are happening lately. Last Saturday I had a fight with C., and we got out of it together, things are good again with him. But I'm so scared I lose him. I don't want to lose someone again. I like him so much. I just want to be with him. My family likes him too, I'm glad they do. My mother had a fight with my sister again yesterday, my mother was drunk. She is drunk more often... The only difference is between me and my sister, I know my mother won't listen to me any way. I tried. She promised to stop again and again. She didn't. So I now know when to shut up.. Luckily I got my friends, I can talk so nice with them. Especially N. and W. They are my best friends at the moment, i think.. So weird to have people this close to me. It's scary, but fun. I'm not alone... This weekend I started with my antidepressants. I need them. I feel really bad lately. Really down, and just tired, mentally. I want to sleep. Just so I don't have to be awake. My life does really have nice and good things. But at the moment, I don't like it.. I feel so fucked up, constantly. I'm just tired.
Love,
Rose
Sorry I don't write that often. I'm so busy. All kinds of stuff are happening lately. Last Saturday I had a fight with C., and we got out of it together, things are good again with him. But I'm so scared I lose him. I don't want to lose someone again. I like him so much. I just want to be with him. My family likes him too, I'm glad they do. My mother had a fight with my sister again yesterday, my mother was drunk. She is drunk more often... The only difference is between me and my sister, I know my mother won't listen to me any way. I tried. She promised to stop again and again. She didn't. So I now know when to shut up.. Luckily I got my friends, I can talk so nice with them. Especially N. and W. They are my best friends at the moment, i think.. So weird to have people this close to me. It's scary, but fun. I'm not alone... This weekend I started with my antidepressants. I need them. I feel really bad lately. Really down, and just tired, mentally. I want to sleep. Just so I don't have to be awake. My life does really have nice and good things. But at the moment, I don't like it.. I feel so fucked up, constantly. I'm just tired.
Love,
Rose