So, had a rough night tonight. I almost killed myself. If C. wasn't with me, I didn't know what I would've done. I finally cried, really badly. It really needed to get out. C. was holding me. So safe. But I don't know if he sees me as relationship material. Especially after yesterday... I collapsed. Luckily I shared with C. I didn;t want any more. Otherwise I maybe wouldn't be here any more. Tomorrow I've an appointment with a psychiatrist. I really need it. Tonight I'm going to a friend of mine. Hope I can get some distraction there. I probably will, he's nice. And he need distraction too. We're going to just have a nice chat and watch a film. Sounds good. I'm off, got to get the bus. Bye!
Love, Rose