Hi everyone!
Well... It's been a while since I was on weebly, writing my thoughts somewhere out of my head. I've been quite busy.. Today something happened that really made me want to write. A friend of mine, D., wanted to kill himself. He was on his way to do it, but he couldn't at the last moment. Now he is in a psychiatric center, for at least a week. He mailed me he was going to do it. Afterwards he mailed he didn't, but that mail, and hearing what he wanted to do. I'm so scared. I could've lost him. People are so easy to lose. actually, everything is. That's why, even though I'm in a relationship with him for more than a month now and it's going great, I'm still aware how easy it is to lose C... The longer we are together, the harder we will fight for each other, and the more trust I will have in him and in 'us'. I try not to let him closer too fast, but that's hard. We've been trough a lot already. I helped him with his ex, he helped me with K., I helped him with being aware how important it is to take good care of yourself and helped cleaning and arrange his bedroom, he helped me with hospital visits and my body. And so we're helping and learning from each other. I like it, spending my time with him. I think we are good for each other. I hope I can do enough for D. to make him feel better again. I went to visit him tonight, he does show he is tensed, but he doesn't show everything. I think that's okay, but I hope he won't bottle it all up in his own head. He is in good hands, I need to trust on that one. I need to rest.. Good night everyone!
Love, Rose
Well... It's been a while since I was on weebly, writing my thoughts somewhere out of my head. I've been quite busy.. Today something happened that really made me want to write. A friend of mine, D., wanted to kill himself. He was on his way to do it, but he couldn't at the last moment. Now he is in a psychiatric center, for at least a week. He mailed me he was going to do it. Afterwards he mailed he didn't, but that mail, and hearing what he wanted to do. I'm so scared. I could've lost him. People are so easy to lose. actually, everything is. That's why, even though I'm in a relationship with him for more than a month now and it's going great, I'm still aware how easy it is to lose C... The longer we are together, the harder we will fight for each other, and the more trust I will have in him and in 'us'. I try not to let him closer too fast, but that's hard. We've been trough a lot already. I helped him with his ex, he helped me with K., I helped him with being aware how important it is to take good care of yourself and helped cleaning and arrange his bedroom, he helped me with hospital visits and my body. And so we're helping and learning from each other. I like it, spending my time with him. I think we are good for each other. I hope I can do enough for D. to make him feel better again. I went to visit him tonight, he does show he is tensed, but he doesn't show everything. I think that's okay, but I hope he won't bottle it all up in his own head. He is in good hands, I need to trust on that one. I need to rest.. Good night everyone!
Love, Rose