Hi everyone!
First, I have to admit something. It felt so good writing again yesterday, that I couldn't wait to do it again. It feels really good, and I want to keep that feeling. I got a few comments on previous posts, and I realize the people who wrote them are right. I am not alone in this, but I have to do it myself. But, if I want change, I have to make it. No one else will do it. And that's for the best. Everyone is responsible for themselves. I will be happy. Even better, I already am. I got food, a warm bed, friends, a cute boyfriend, lovely cats, education and of course, internet! ^_^ But, to make a person really happy, there is more to it than the basics(even though I realize all of these are luxuries not everyone has). So, from now on I don't want to be completely busy with others. I don't want to worry about my ex C. anymore(he got back with his ex after breaking up with me), because I'm scared she will hit him again. I don't want to worry about F. (I talk about F. in my previous writings) anymore, because I'm scared he'll get himself in real trouble someday. I don't want to worry about K. anymore, scared he'll get himself really hurt someday. I want to save my energy for myself and the people who care about me, not those who have hurt me and don't even realize how bad they did it. I will talk about them now and them, but please realize, this is my place to get things out of my head and of my heart. I just hope you love to read this. I hope you comment now and then. That gives me strength. Knowing I am heard, in some way, really relieves me. Thanks for everything.
Love,
Rose
First, I have to admit something. It felt so good writing again yesterday, that I couldn't wait to do it again. It feels really good, and I want to keep that feeling. I got a few comments on previous posts, and I realize the people who wrote them are right. I am not alone in this, but I have to do it myself. But, if I want change, I have to make it. No one else will do it. And that's for the best. Everyone is responsible for themselves. I will be happy. Even better, I already am. I got food, a warm bed, friends, a cute boyfriend, lovely cats, education and of course, internet! ^_^ But, to make a person really happy, there is more to it than the basics(even though I realize all of these are luxuries not everyone has). So, from now on I don't want to be completely busy with others. I don't want to worry about my ex C. anymore(he got back with his ex after breaking up with me), because I'm scared she will hit him again. I don't want to worry about F. (I talk about F. in my previous writings) anymore, because I'm scared he'll get himself in real trouble someday. I don't want to worry about K. anymore, scared he'll get himself really hurt someday. I want to save my energy for myself and the people who care about me, not those who have hurt me and don't even realize how bad they did it. I will talk about them now and them, but please realize, this is my place to get things out of my head and of my heart. I just hope you love to read this. I hope you comment now and then. That gives me strength. Knowing I am heard, in some way, really relieves me. Thanks for everything.
Love,
Rose