Well.. Now I know why K. doesn't want me any more. He got a new girlfriend. It hurts. I threw up. I hurt myself, first time since multiple weeks. And you know what? The one I want to care, doesn't care any more. I stayed mad for too long. It's my own fault. And this proves how much I mean to people. They lose me, and in no time, they have replaced me. K. told me I was special. But I'm not, I knew it. I'm so stupid. Well. She's probably better for him. She probably doesn't have a disease. She probably is able to win his trust. She probably can give him all he wants. She's better than me. And I bet she's way prettier. I hope they'll be happy. I don't care how I feel any more. I want to die. I hate love. I hate myself. I stayed mad for too long. And now I lost him.
Love, Rose