Hi everyone!
Had a bad evening... A cry-night. I hate my body so much. It hurts, it doesn't do what I want and it doesn't like me any more! Making me really tired. Yesterday I had a junk food night. Only cookies, chocolate and sweet stuff, hmmmmm... Me liky liky! :) Well. So.. Tonight was a cry-night. Two days ago P. texted me. he said he misses me. I don't really know what to do with it. We can't be friends, he really doesn't like K., and that's the other way around exactly the same, and if we become friends, he'll need to accept K. But maybe that isn't the biggest reason I don't want him back as a friend. He hurt me. A lot. He told a lot of negative stuff about K., because he doesn't like him. I don't even know who he talk with about K. Well, everybody else does like him, so... Luckily, I got a lot of friends on my side. No, I don't want friendship with a guy like that, I think. I want friends who can accept the people around me, for me. At least tolerate them. A little grown-up is able to do that, right? And besides that, he said really mean stuff to me. Even besides K., I don't think I want him to be closer to me than now. So, I'll just leave it at whatever it is. Nothing. He hurt me enough. Don't need him to do a little more. Going to sleep, tomorrow I have an appointment with my psychologist, she's helping me getting along with my disease. That'll be another hour crying. Luckily I'm seeing K. tomorrow too! I didn't see him for three days now, I miss him so much! I really love him, and I said it tonight over the telephone. He said it first, I said it back. My heart stopped, for a second, seriously. Those words are so deep for me, but so is K., so it's a good combo! K, I love you!! :)
Love, Rose
Had a bad evening... A cry-night. I hate my body so much. It hurts, it doesn't do what I want and it doesn't like me any more! Making me really tired. Yesterday I had a junk food night. Only cookies, chocolate and sweet stuff, hmmmmm... Me liky liky! :) Well. So.. Tonight was a cry-night. Two days ago P. texted me. he said he misses me. I don't really know what to do with it. We can't be friends, he really doesn't like K., and that's the other way around exactly the same, and if we become friends, he'll need to accept K. But maybe that isn't the biggest reason I don't want him back as a friend. He hurt me. A lot. He told a lot of negative stuff about K., because he doesn't like him. I don't even know who he talk with about K. Well, everybody else does like him, so... Luckily, I got a lot of friends on my side. No, I don't want friendship with a guy like that, I think. I want friends who can accept the people around me, for me. At least tolerate them. A little grown-up is able to do that, right? And besides that, he said really mean stuff to me. Even besides K., I don't think I want him to be closer to me than now. So, I'll just leave it at whatever it is. Nothing. He hurt me enough. Don't need him to do a little more. Going to sleep, tomorrow I have an appointment with my psychologist, she's helping me getting along with my disease. That'll be another hour crying. Luckily I'm seeing K. tomorrow too! I didn't see him for three days now, I miss him so much! I really love him, and I said it tonight over the telephone. He said it first, I said it back. My heart stopped, for a second, seriously. Those words are so deep for me, but so is K., so it's a good combo! K, I love you!! :)
Love, Rose