Hi everyone.
N. and I broke up, around two months ago. We have been together for over a year, and now, everything we put in our relationship, is lost. I can't get him out of my head. I don't believe him when he says he thinks about me all the time. That is not what he shows me. He sees other girls. Just friends, he says. I do believe there is no love. But I know him. I think there is lust with some of them. Well. If he's happy, I am. Right? I try to be. But the idea of him with another girl. It hurts. Another girls laughing with him. Instead of me. Another girl in bed with him. Instead of me. Another girl he holds. Instead of me. It is for the best. I didn't make him happy, I had my chance. I tried to change for him. But I can't. I feel so weak. Finally, I really felt like loving someone again. And I ruined it. I feel so stupid.
Love,
Rose
N. and I broke up, around two months ago. We have been together for over a year, and now, everything we put in our relationship, is lost. I can't get him out of my head. I don't believe him when he says he thinks about me all the time. That is not what he shows me. He sees other girls. Just friends, he says. I do believe there is no love. But I know him. I think there is lust with some of them. Well. If he's happy, I am. Right? I try to be. But the idea of him with another girl. It hurts. Another girls laughing with him. Instead of me. Another girl in bed with him. Instead of me. Another girl he holds. Instead of me. It is for the best. I didn't make him happy, I had my chance. I tried to change for him. But I can't. I feel so weak. Finally, I really felt like loving someone again. And I ruined it. I feel so stupid.
Love,
Rose